Old Testament

I have really been diving into the old testament the past week...From Joseph, Moses, and the exodus I have been really challenged and renewed. I believe a portion of what is taking place in my has to do with this mission trip to Africa in June. Everyday there is a battle in my head, but deep in my heart I know I am to go. I really can't explain to you the anguish I battle with everyday, but I know it is a Spiritual war. I know God is preparing me in ways I don't even understand. I was reading in Exodus 3 today regarding God calling Moses. I related to Moses in many of his weak moments!

"Who am I, that I should go?" -3:11

"What if they don't believe me or listen to me?" 4:1

"I have never been eloquent, neither in the past not since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue." 4: 10

"O, Lord, please send someone else to do it." 4:13

Down at the bottom of my Bible I had written a note from when I was at Bible School-never knowing God would use it 6 years later in my life...
Satan tries to let us think we aren't good enough to be used by God...but it is Christ IN us...We just need to be willing!

Every morning I cry out to Him, knowing I am not fully capable, but I am evolving into being fully willing to be used by Him.

This process of becoming weak so that HE may fully use me is a bumpy road, but one full of indescribable joy!!


God just wants a willing vessel....